Moongirl

what if (Not by Coldplay but...) by ec Mo :P

2009-09-05T07:01:13Z

What if when you lie
nothing wrong all things right.
What if there’s enough time,
and one reason and a rhyme.

What if he should decide
that He does want me there by His side,
that He’ll be by my side my whole life.

What if it wasn’t wrong
and there’s a poem and song.
Got it right when could put it wrong
and you feel that you are not alone.

uuuuuuuuuuuu, that’s right,
let’s take a breath smiling inside
uuuuuuuuuuuu that’s right
how can you know if you don’t even try

Every step that you take
could clean all your ache.
It could bend or it could break
that’s the risk, we don’t hesitate.

what if he should decide
that he does want me there by his side
that he’ll be by my side my whole life?

uuuuuuuuuuuu, that’s right,
let’s take a breath smiling inside
uuuuuuuuuuuu that’s right
how can you know if you don’t even try?

NOte: Coldplay song - "What If" rewritten by me. I prepared myself to sing this song if the college test didn't work out...by it did work out! So I had no song to sing. Then I felt I needed an optimistic song....so ...why not to sing the opposite of it? right?

© Erika C. Molina, 2009

Anyone Else But You – A Favorite :)

2009-09-05T06:33:07Z

A little bit about me :)

2009-08-30T21:12:06Z

Global Personality Test Results

Stability (56%) moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness (60%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion (43%) moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

trait snapshot:

clean, organized, dislikes chaos, semi neat freak, perfectionist, traditional, realist, fits in most places, enjoys managing others, risk averse, good at saving money, prudent, respects authority, high self control, hard working, does not like to stand out, follows the rules, finisher, resilient, takes precautions, cautious, honest, unfamiliar with the dark side of life, practical, dutiful

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Writing for me is...

2009-08-30T07:22:14Z

" the silent scream that keeps me going.."

Note: a photographer, CyrusMafi, said this about photography. It just fitted perfectly for my own feelings about writing. It's really deep for me.

Tonight, I wondered why do I keep silent when I need to shout.

Three Girls Lives

2009-08-29T00:36:02Z

At this point, in life (18 years since you were born…) you try to guess what will your life will be like by the things that you do, live and go through.

A girl not too far away had engaged her in a backpack adventure of 20 days across Latin America – Brazil, Argentina & Chile – along with 6 other persons a year later of her student exchange. What an interesting story to own; not her nor her friends will forget this too easily or soon.

Another girl in the same town has come back home from her own student exchange happier than when she left, for in her absence she had realized how sweet home is to her. She won’t leave it again that easy she says. Now all the most unique, special and interesting people with which I wanted to share miss her.

But there is a third girl, who writes down what she thinks. She’s wondering where all the travels she wished for are and why those outstanding persons weren’t supposed to be in her way. What she thought her life could be belongs to some other girl today. But she does have a story, and this is how it can be tell...

This last year, she didn’t went to an exchange student, no sir; instead she moved for the 10th and last time of house with her family 500 km away (Manta) from the first house they lived 17 years ago. Plus she graduated as the #1 of her class (home school rocks! Lol) gave an admission test for college and passed!! Now three years later she comes back to her hometown (Cuenca) where she once started. Her best friend is left behind in the new house and the friend that once saw her go is nowhere anymore. That's her story for now. She just wonders what’s next for her.

~I'll See You Again~

2009-08-27T03:53:20Z

Today I’ll make colored paper flowers.

I’ll cut them out one by one in silence.

Then I’ll let them go with the wind.

I’ll throw them fiercely over the sea,

At the memory of your face

I’ll do it repeatedly trying to accept this fate.
(The day of eternity I wait)

In Memory of

Pedro Vintimilla

(1990 - 2007)

My best friend

The Turning Point

2009-08-21T00:26:35Z

Yap, that's right. I gave the first under-pressure test after so long and succeed! :)
This means a new phase, adventure & lifetime begins for me (College); sometimes I wonder if I'm ready for it. As once I wrote on my journal: "the most drastic and important changes in my life had taken me off guard; I never had seen their magnitude, not until they're so close that's impossible to avoid them and it's too late that I'm already on board."
The consolation in all this is that at the end of the trip I had not regretted a single day.
The One who holds the rudder is trustworthy

Appearing Rooms

2009-08-18T03:57:56Z

Appearing Rooms
Originally uploaded by Jon Cartwright

Here is one of the best street photographers I know (not personally though he lives in London and which I would LOOOVE to meet, anyway....)

Just
- check him out,
- pick one that catches your attention
&
- stare at it.

Personally, I love to see the people's expressions; Jon is great capturing them in the exact moment.

Enjoy!

www.joncartwright.com/

After a long while

2009-08-14T22:18:50Z

OK To take this blog seriously!
After overcoming any doubt and fear about it, I'll do it.

Soon i'll have something worthy to post in here :)
Wait for it.

(Now i cant take it back :S hehe)

Traffic Light Tree

2009-05-08T20:47:48Z

Isn't it beautiful?

1st Dislike

2009-05-08T20:11:20Z

In this project I'll post my likes and dislikes. Have plenty.
Please fell free to add one of your own :)

I like rain - I dislike when my iPod has no battery left

Fish Lights

2009-04-04T23:12:03Z

My city, My world
With fish lights : )

Jon Cartwright

2009-04-02T21:12:12Z

I asked: “where have you been my whole life, Jon Cartwright.”

As I watched a square dispersing a thousand rays of light to my eyes.

I fell freely inside your land

Through a window without a glass.

They weren’t windows; they were frames.

Frames that transported me to an enchanted city too far away,

Every time I spelled your name.

What a wonderful way to lose oneself.

As more as I contemplated them,

I wondered what your thought were or what was in your head.

I felt like if I knew you for a long time

Even when I knew nothing of your mind.

Meet you in a park. Joint you one day in your walk.

It is too much to ask.

There should be nothing further than my land in your head.

We are two strangers with different mind,

Different eyes, in unknown lands sharing images.

Now, many other names shine on the screen.

Admiration. They all are deservers of it.

The world has plenty of lands still to be seen,

Which have earned my esteem.

Still, you own the first sight that caught my mind.

The admiration of my eyes for your frames will not easily go away.

I’ll always open your page again.

I don’t know who you are or what you really see

But a favor I ask.

Don’t stop shooting. Don’t give up the posting in here.

Never stop to see.

For your work, at the other side of the world, as a thanked dweller, I’ll see.

Good night*

2009-03-30T03:32:40Z

The day passed slow.
I need a close friend to talk
I have none around
Mine are too far away
They don't call

I wish I could write you without inhibitions opening my heart.
I wish you would want to know what it hides.
I wish you would call me to talk.

While, empty inbox mail folders and a quiet cellphone without incoming messaages is where I cuddle.
Unknown people'a poetry and love tales carry me away.
Here I sit in a sinking seat inside a virtual world of words.
Are they real?
I don't know
Do they care?
Not enough

So I'll lay down on my own tonight
and I'll forget everything I have inside when the morning loaded with new worries and things-to-do's arrive.

Good night*

Places

2009-03-26T17:49:01Z

There are places where you should never go back.
There are places that you should leave just as they are.
There are places where you should remind yourself admire.
There are places where you should stop and sigh.

Places that fasten you with the past.
Places that fit inside your mind.
Places that safe, who you are.

A history, a life, a past.
Run as fast as you can.
For there is one place where you can go back
and find everything exactly as it was.
Your heart.

Questions

2009-03-17T03:02:05Z

You will have questions about the future.
doesn't matter how old you are
or how many answered questions you had.
I wish I could live without them.

I want you here tonight but you're not.
Will you be there in the future by my side?
An unanswered future question now i have.

Who you are?

(For my future husband, someday )

If You Have...

2009-03-17T02:57:29Z

If you have a color, paint
If you have a thought, write
If you have a paper, fold it and make it fly
If you have a cry, walk
If you have a song, dance
If you have dream, sleep
If you have a love, forget
If you have eyes, learn
If you have pain, pray
If you have a problem, trust
If you have a life, follow God
If you are weak, try
If you have a road, run
If you don't know, watch
If you have a friend, call
If you have a rock, build
If you have nothing, seek
If you have a heart, breath.

My Place

2009-03-14T06:11:21Z

I want to go to Boston someday.
I want a coffe, walk in a park, spend the night, and then leave.
I want to go to Europe too.
To London, and stay. As long as convinient.
I will let the charm of the city give a spell over me. It will stay forever in me.
Then I will leave.

But I am stuck here, where I feel that I dont belong;
wishing to be where my head rest in hopes.
Just somewhere else.

But this place will always be home just as the parents will always be parents.
And you will never be far enough,
Because they are the place where you always belonged.

So when I make it, I will want to come back.
I will miss it so much.
I will remember it and will regrete in my heart
not to have seen and feel it as it really was:
Mine.

moongirl17 @ 2009-03-10T15:14:00

2009-03-10T20:21:43Z

I cry because I don't know.
I don't know what is ahead for me now.
I have nothing to bring as mine.

I'll keep walking.
Should I wait for something to come?
Are my desires enough?

I'll keep raising my prayers to your throne.
I'll keep waiting for Your voice to come.

I'm still asking, how can I please You?

How can I serve You?

Your Eyes-All I want

2009-03-10T20:13:35Z

I want to look at you in your eyes.
I want to talk to you with the sight.
I want to get lost inside their perfect roundness brown.
I want you to find something in mine.
i want to hear them say:
"i'm falling in love with your eyes"

~.What They Did to Me.~

2009-03-07T04:40:12Z

Have you heard what they just did to me?

They cut off my wings and told me to keep walking.

I couldn’t fly yet but I dreamed with the day I would do it.

Now I wait for something that won’t come.

Now it feels useless to thing or dream about it.

There is no dream anymore. It is fog. It is a mirage.

There is no hope. It has been a no.

I’ve never felt this. I’ve never been left without hope.

Doors are closing in sharp snaps to me with a rotund ‘no’.

After them there is nothing. I can see nothing.

I cherished what I considered my wings. Deep cherish and strong attachment bonded me to them; but they are no longer my wings. I cannot touch them. Now I walk by trying to show indifference toward them but I only find sorrow stuck in the center of my heart.

How it hurts to know that you no longer belong to me. It hurts so much.

it was a 'No'

2009-03-06T00:58:10Z

maybe the adventure is right here where i am.
i wonder what is ahead in the future?
now i have to be strong enough to find the sunshine in the present

today, there was a bird, an hanging clouds in the sky. it was a perfect sunny sky on the way to guayaquil.
even the american guy who interview us in the consul was good-looking and nice.
i wonder how does he feel to say `no` to so many people. i would hate to see people's faces falling apart or trying to look calm after a visa denied.
anyway, yeah i didn't got it. i dont apply for it. whatever it means hehehe

now i know where i'm not gonna be this year. and that is such a relieve!
because i hate uncertainty.
hugs and kisses for all who read
night!

oh dear tomorrow

2009-03-05T02:07:02Z

tomorrow, tomorrow. would you tell me what you got for me, oh dear tomorow.
do you enjoy to hold the mistery between your veils or the anxiety in my veins?
how do i look standing here in your edge?
i have a presentiment i'll wait for you with my eyes wide open.
i'll stare at you in quiteness and stillness feeling the distance we hold.
oh tomorrow, if you would know you are more than just another future day?
oh if you could know what you are, what you hold, or what your worth really is.
let me walk along my side of the river while you walk yours at the shore acroos.
let us share deep glances at each other knowing we have destiny ties.
but i know i'll get what i want while you get lost in time
so, enjoy while you can; because, tomorow, you'll be past.
tonight just let me stop and sing while i'll wait.
tonight, i'll be watching Your sky...

in the uncertainty

2009-03-04T03:20:39Z

i'm happy in this boring day.
i'll know if i get the visa for the united states in 2 days. i'm nervious. i really would like to get it. it had been a dream for too long but i'm not too anxious as i used to be when i was younger.
i've been answering the questions of some formularies for the us consul. there are so many questions about if i had ever used arms or been in an armed attack and stuff like that. the gringos are caught completly by this issue. poor them.

man! if i get to the usa i want to go to coldplay's concert in portland, oregon on july 10! that would be sweet! that would be SUCH a dream!!
oh man, i'm hating the uncertainty...but i have a good place to rest in this waiting time.

and even if this thursday doesnt come out as i hope i still will have a good weekend. the guy i talked in the post:"9 days ago..." is coming to manta from cuenca to visit us and help the youth group with the theatre group. he is a great actor. i think he let go all his inabitions by acting. i can wait to see him again.
i never thaught this year could be so awesome! 2009 ...i like it.

9 days ago...

2009-03-01T21:35:16Z

[Deleted entry for my own sake...........not everybody could read that one :D]